Mmmm How Sad ... .

Mmmm today was the last day of AS, some of my good friends in A2 are leaving...it just wont be the same without them, its like losing a part of yourself sometimes, people come into your life, bring joy laughter, sadness and pain, make you feel emotions that you had never felt. they just as suddenly they came, they quietly leave without a whisper. and then whenever you mention them in your memories, u refer to them in the past tense, example "Oh yeah, she used to do that" and "Yeah he used to say that all the time" and....memories is all that we have from them....meh seems too sad to be true

Whats more depressing is that i may leave all my friends and go to England to study....mmm i have nothing left here to make me stay longer. and i feel England will be a better change as that's where i feel enjoyment really is, that's where i feel most at home...but that doesn't mean i don't enjoy myself here, i have friends who care and like me as i like them, whom become part of my life as i become part of theirs, each one Has a different story, each person has different experiences with me, yet like with every story it has to end......But the choice of when to end it is up to me hmmm

But things are unpredictable, i read alot of my last poetry and then went on alot of sites and read their poems as well, mostly about past, present and future and ofcourse love. each one touched me in alot of ways, i felt i would miss each and everyone person i knew, each and everyone had a significant trait to show me and be remembered by it. a friend could be caring. another friend could be loving but the one person ill remember is perhaps the one person who loved me,

A person who was by me throughout this year, that person unfortunately wont be in school next year. and i feel ill miss her too much for comfort lol but heh things like that happen you know? unexpected scenarios pop up and then your stuck having to deal with them, and the experience is what makes us stronger or weaker, and that is in itself. Life. The things i would probably miss,...hmmm..... Perhaps the best way to say is it, Sometimes the things said are less important than the things Unsaid....i wont be sad as such to see her go, rather than be sad on how many things i never told her, how many things i felt for her, how much i loved or cared for her. and perhaps never be able to spend as much as time with her as i felt i wanted to.

These things are the ones that will stay in my heart, these things will be the ones my mind will never let, These feelings is what will make me worst, and soon i will simply learn to admit it like another curse.

-The Devil